Tuesday, May 21, 2013
I know that there are people reading, but whoever it is, i still going to write whatever i am going to write. I have no guts to say it out in front of everyone, but at least, i have the guts to write it out in front of everyone.
Currently, experiencing many different feelings. Sian, sad, stress, angry. Reason? there are so many.
there are some people who just thinks that poomsae training is easy. some would even say that the training wont even sweat. How true. Its just like me saying that i can dont study for my diploma + and graduate with a GPA of 1.2 for it. no kick also. Training poomsae without sweating is possible. I learnt all my high dan pattern in less than 1 week each, so easy. But the reason? because i am not training it for any competition, not training to go up to any standard, neither am i putting in effort to train. But when i do, 3 times! 3 Times maximum and i will be sweating all over. if you think that wont sweat, go train urself for 1 competition, do it yourself and proof me wrong.
SP is a school. School is = study. When i was studying, mh said to me that the students are the priority, not the coaches. That time i was year 3, i din agreed. Reason being i thought that studying in poly is easy. Now i look back, i totally agree with him. Not everyone is like me, who can come to poly and cruise through the 3 years and ends up with a uni placing. this place is a school. Study have to come first. Why have i wanted to conduct 7 training a week? it was so that the students can come when they are free, and be absent when they are not. Studying is a priority. There are people who forwarded module, and am i going to be the one who tell them, "you better come for my 2 extra training per week, if not you cant participate" They may be free 1 week and not free another. I am totally obliged to comply to them. After all, i am more free than them. My work cant take home and do, i dont have to study at home, and all my nights and weekends are free. + with the passion, why cant i take them 7 days a week. if someone is going to take me for granted, its definitely not going to be them. As long as they can take back somethings, and pass them down, its more than enough. Some days i am not free, they do understand also. Instead, i was asked to reduce my no. of training and got the normal training ground taken away, and totally left alone to do everything. I asked for show case, all except 1 seems to be interested. I set aside 2 days, it never happened. All that i was told was, i should do this i should do that. COME ON! the focus is not me! i need feedback for their performance. There is only so much i can pick up. Everyone has their views and opinions. Some may end up enlightening me. in the end? im not getting them. The reason i brought zaki into the competition, was not for him to compete. He is someone who is capable of doing the movements. Which means he has his own secrets in achieving them. He is being way more helpful in terms of giving feedback, passing down what he learnt, and doing what a coach should do. I have been exploring many ways to teach a move, but there is only so much i can think of. The 2 people helping the players the most, 1 is my coach, who is no longer recognised as a coach to a certain extent, the other, is our student. guys, the help that i need, is not to help me. is to help the players. At least i can see someone trying to help me in understanding my problems and helping with it. The others, i dont know what you all are thinking and i dont have the time to decipher your thoughts, but i dont see any help coming in. Telling me what i should do is not helping at all in any way. if you are saying that i need to focus on the majority instead of minority, why not just give me the resources so that i can focus on the minority. I din even bother asking for help, because i cant see it coming. or rather, i see myself taken for granted.
I have no idea how is sparring and poomsae training similar in any way. How is the 2 training even comparable to each other. lets take 1 example. if you suck at 1 kick, u can always use another one, poomsae, there is no alternative. you have to do, means you need to do. Sparring has no right or wrong, anything practical is fine. Poomsae was meant for practical usage, but competition was never based on practicality. Its either right or wrong. I have only 1 pair of eyes. How am i going to see everyone doing it at the same time. Accuracy is only one of the thing. are you telling me to look at 15 people doing it at their own timing, and then giving comments for each and individual one of them? i should try just write 15 numbers on a paper and ask u to write them out in the same order. The focus that i put on the "minorty", in this case was everyone but into small groups, is to the extent that i can totally visualise each and everyone of them doing their own pattern in my head. That is how strong the impression they have left. If you think that it is useless, its based on all those that i can write up so many pages of paper of comments for them. they know their mistakes, i know what to focus on for everyone of them. Is this even possible if i am taking them all at once? The time spent on training them is not just on the surface of the time that i spent with them. I spend many many many hours, writing out their individual mistakes, how to train some of the more important things, and things they need to remind themselves. There have been so much time spent into thinking how to break down one move into the finest details to be taught. rather than, constantly demoing to them how to do something, but no1 actually learnt it. Poomsae training requires a lot of will power. The only way to train, is to do the same 20+ steps over and over again. Imagine doing that for 1 hour, its pure mental torture. Sparring can have so many ways of training. such that the body gets tired way before the mind. How many times do you see people break down during sparring training, and how many times people breakdown during poomsae training. Every time i take them, i can see that some of them are on the verge of giving up. I was once trained for poomsae also. Poomsae training cant go on for long, but it will be more beneficial for short but frequent training. Sparring training can be 1 coach to many. but poomsae, it was never possible.
SP have never been a poomsae club. There is no emphasis on it other than before grading and competition. Last time there are quite a few coaches, but now? this kind of situation? trust me, its only gonna get worse. Hope sir gets to bring joyce down from ntc.. That 1, 1 person may be enough, me? sorry i cant.
What i can do, is to pass on as much things as possible. I dunno what to expect for the competition, but for them not being able to achieve what they desire, that would be my failure. I dont blame on the expectation on me, i dont blame it on any other pple. if they had trust in me, Im ought to give them what they wants.
I know that there are people reading, but whoever it is, i still going to write whatever i am going to write. I have no guts to say it out in front of everyone, but at least, i have the guts to write it out in front of everyone.
Currently, experiencing many different feelings. Sian, sad, stress, angry. Reason? there are so many.
there are some people who just thinks that poomsae training is easy. some would even say that the training wont even sweat. How true. Its just like me saying that i can dont study for my diploma + and graduate with a GPA of 1.2 for it. no kick also. Training poomsae without sweating is possible. I learnt all my high dan pattern in less than 1 week each, so easy. But the reason? because i am not training it for any competition, not training to go up to any standard, neither am i putting in effort to train. But when i do, 3 times! 3 Times maximum and i will be sweating all over. if you think that wont sweat, go train urself for 1 competition, do it yourself and proof me wrong.
SP is a school. School is = study. When i was studying, mh said to me that the students are the priority, not the coaches. That time i was year 3, i din agreed. Reason being i thought that studying in poly is easy. Now i look back, i totally agree with him. Not everyone is like me, who can come to poly and cruise through the 3 years and ends up with a uni placing. this place is a school. Study have to come first. Why have i wanted to conduct 7 training a week? it was so that the students can come when they are free, and be absent when they are not. Studying is a priority. There are people who forwarded module, and am i going to be the one who tell them, "you better come for my 2 extra training per week, if not you cant participate" They may be free 1 week and not free another. I am totally obliged to comply to them. After all, i am more free than them. My work cant take home and do, i dont have to study at home, and all my nights and weekends are free. + with the passion, why cant i take them 7 days a week. if someone is going to take me for granted, its definitely not going to be them. As long as they can take back somethings, and pass them down, its more than enough. Some days i am not free, they do understand also. Instead, i was asked to reduce my no. of training and got the normal training ground taken away, and totally left alone to do everything. I asked for show case, all except 1 seems to be interested. I set aside 2 days, it never happened. All that i was told was, i should do this i should do that. COME ON! the focus is not me! i need feedback for their performance. There is only so much i can pick up. Everyone has their views and opinions. Some may end up enlightening me. in the end? im not getting them. The reason i brought zaki into the competition, was not for him to compete. He is someone who is capable of doing the movements. Which means he has his own secrets in achieving them. He is being way more helpful in terms of giving feedback, passing down what he learnt, and doing what a coach should do. I have been exploring many ways to teach a move, but there is only so much i can think of. The 2 people helping the players the most, 1 is my coach, who is no longer recognised as a coach to a certain extent, the other, is our student. guys, the help that i need, is not to help me. is to help the players. At least i can see someone trying to help me in understanding my problems and helping with it. The others, i dont know what you all are thinking and i dont have the time to decipher your thoughts, but i dont see any help coming in. Telling me what i should do is not helping at all in any way. if you are saying that i need to focus on the majority instead of minority, why not just give me the resources so that i can focus on the minority. I din even bother asking for help, because i cant see it coming. or rather, i see myself taken for granted.
I have no idea how is sparring and poomsae training similar in any way. How is the 2 training even comparable to each other. lets take 1 example. if you suck at 1 kick, u can always use another one, poomsae, there is no alternative. you have to do, means you need to do. Sparring has no right or wrong, anything practical is fine. Poomsae was meant for practical usage, but competition was never based on practicality. Its either right or wrong. I have only 1 pair of eyes. How am i going to see everyone doing it at the same time. Accuracy is only one of the thing. are you telling me to look at 15 people doing it at their own timing, and then giving comments for each and individual one of them? i should try just write 15 numbers on a paper and ask u to write them out in the same order. The focus that i put on the "minorty", in this case was everyone but into small groups, is to the extent that i can totally visualise each and everyone of them doing their own pattern in my head. That is how strong the impression they have left. If you think that it is useless, its based on all those that i can write up so many pages of paper of comments for them. they know their mistakes, i know what to focus on for everyone of them. Is this even possible if i am taking them all at once? The time spent on training them is not just on the surface of the time that i spent with them. I spend many many many hours, writing out their individual mistakes, how to train some of the more important things, and things they need to remind themselves. There have been so much time spent into thinking how to break down one move into the finest details to be taught. rather than, constantly demoing to them how to do something, but no1 actually learnt it. Poomsae training requires a lot of will power. The only way to train, is to do the same 20+ steps over and over again. Imagine doing that for 1 hour, its pure mental torture. Sparring can have so many ways of training. such that the body gets tired way before the mind. How many times do you see people break down during sparring training, and how many times people breakdown during poomsae training. Every time i take them, i can see that some of them are on the verge of giving up. I was once trained for poomsae also. Poomsae training cant go on for long, but it will be more beneficial for short but frequent training. Sparring training can be 1 coach to many. but poomsae, it was never possible.
SP have never been a poomsae club. There is no emphasis on it other than before grading and competition. Last time there are quite a few coaches, but now? this kind of situation? trust me, its only gonna get worse. Hope sir gets to bring joyce down from ntc.. That 1, 1 person may be enough, me? sorry i cant.
What i can do, is to pass on as much things as possible. I dunno what to expect for the competition, but for them not being able to achieve what they desire, that would be my failure. I dont blame on the expectation on me, i dont blame it on any other pple. if they had trust in me, Im ought to give them what they wants.
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Name: Xiong Yishun
D.O.B.: 14/08/1990
School: SP/DASE
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D.O.B.: 14/08/1990
School: SP/DASE
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