Monday, May 20, 2013
HTHT today..
Good job on getting something out of my heart after 4 month to the 1st person. now got some1 to talk to regarding that already..
Today, i realised more things about me.
1. Im a very principle based person.
2. I like to please everyone.
the second actually i knew very long ago already, but it was just brought to me again. and thinking back, the setting is now different.. Last time, i still can afford to do it, but now, given the position i am in, and given the things that i do, i can no longer keep up with it. During BMT some pple said that i like to wayang. Maybe that is the reason. I try to get onto good terms with everyone, for a simple reason that i will never know when i need help from some of them. The network definitely will open me up to more options in the future. But now, times have changed, so should I. Have to choose which side is more important, and beneficial for whatever i am tasked to do. Its difficult to know know if i am doing it for myself or for others.
Today, i realised that i have set so many limitations and principles to myself and the way i should do things, and its limiting my opportunities. A struggle between people around me, self conscious, and benefits for myself. I want the best for myself, but most of the time, i rank myself last, behind all others. laying out all the freebies on the table up for people to grab, but i will quietly stand at the back and wait for everyone else to finish up. to fight for what i want is one thing, but to let others suffer because of my selfishness is another. maybe i really should remove some of my principles but i am afraid that it will affect my own quality of life too. Nothing can be perfect, and of coz, not all principles will be matched all at once. Some have to be forsaken, but there are ones that i cant let go. A huge fight is breaking out. Much more easier said than done.
HTHT today..
Good job on getting something out of my heart after 4 month to the 1st person. now got some1 to talk to regarding that already..
Today, i realised more things about me.
1. Im a very principle based person.
2. I like to please everyone.
the second actually i knew very long ago already, but it was just brought to me again. and thinking back, the setting is now different.. Last time, i still can afford to do it, but now, given the position i am in, and given the things that i do, i can no longer keep up with it. During BMT some pple said that i like to wayang. Maybe that is the reason. I try to get onto good terms with everyone, for a simple reason that i will never know when i need help from some of them. The network definitely will open me up to more options in the future. But now, times have changed, so should I. Have to choose which side is more important, and beneficial for whatever i am tasked to do. Its difficult to know know if i am doing it for myself or for others.
Today, i realised that i have set so many limitations and principles to myself and the way i should do things, and its limiting my opportunities. A struggle between people around me, self conscious, and benefits for myself. I want the best for myself, but most of the time, i rank myself last, behind all others. laying out all the freebies on the table up for people to grab, but i will quietly stand at the back and wait for everyone else to finish up. to fight for what i want is one thing, but to let others suffer because of my selfishness is another. maybe i really should remove some of my principles but i am afraid that it will affect my own quality of life too. Nothing can be perfect, and of coz, not all principles will be matched all at once. Some have to be forsaken, but there are ones that i cant let go. A huge fight is breaking out. Much more easier said than done.
11:27 pm
Name: Xiong Yishun
D.O.B.: 14/08/1990
School: SP/DASE
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D.O.B.: 14/08/1990
School: SP/DASE
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