Sunday, March 07, 2010
haiz... lost my 1st competition. n i lost it to myself. haven really watch the replay, but, i dunno wat is wrong. nvr been this aggressive be4 even if i tried really hard in the past.
reflections:
did quite a lot of thinking be4 the competition. thought real hard of how to get score fast, how to catch the opponent by surprise, how to fake opponent and then counter him. warmed up, cooled down warmed up again. it doesnt look too bad, especially got the feel like yesterday. i had quite a lot of confidence in myself.
Prepared everything damn early, wore all the guards and padding be4 they even call for the bout. was damn excited to start my bout. finally go in already, become very nervous. cant stay calm. saw my opponent, saw him be4 too, his name is tan wei sheng, same as my class that 1.. he has the look of freddy now to think of it. he really looked damn familiar. talked to him a while, then 1 bout be4 mine, sir jb told me, dont give him distance, fight half way no stamina, can win de. what i usually do during sparring training, i hardly even get caught out of breadth, wait for chance then go, not even attacking, just trying to defend myself. so i thought the stamina part would be okay.
when at the side of the mat, be the bout start, he reminded me again. can here pple cheering for me.. 3 distinct voices, 1 from the team, 1 from guoshu coz she pronounce my name diff from the others, 1 i thought was from keli, but i think its from some1 who was lagging from the rest. nvm. that 1 leave aside.
finally, be4 fighting, wat i remember seeing was like some places in heaven, like very bright, shiny and borderless place, like an empty space. inside there were only 4 objects. me, opponent, mat and the score board. and that time my brain was all blank. all i know that i shld do is to score his padding, to whack him, to gain as many points as possible. n chionged. really chionged. kicked 2-3 times the no. of kicks that i would kick in 1 round. until its the break, im leading 3-0. i thought, wow, not bad ar.. haha.. going win liao, then walk back to sir, suddenly realise that im trying hard to catch my breadth. i had no idea i was struggling with my breadth. had done nothing that i had wanted to try, had not followed any instructions. that was when i told myself, that i need to slow down the pace for round 2. try to keep close to him.
when round 2 came, same thing happened again chionging like a bull, aiming for the blue padding. exchanged kicks, quite a few goood kicks i felt, and ended the round still leading. cant remember the score. maybe 7-5. omg. at that time i really felt like dying. gasping for air, thats all i felt. still, same instructions from sir.
round 3 is the self pawn round. still leading, by at least 3 points. still with the same mentality, with the same things that i saw in round 1. only that this time, had a much harder time, throwing my legs. almost completely out of energy. he caught up, and some point of time, he overtook with a score of 11-10. that was when i panicked. trying to catch him, but instead letting him take another 2 points. i had always told myself be4, nvr to chase without thinking at opponent when time is running short. but somehow, my instinct all took over. maybe i was overconfident. until there was like ard 30 secs left, i thought i could use my BT making it obvious to fake him. it did work, 3 out of 3 times, but i did not even think of how to counter after he got faked n side step. 15 secs left i decided to slow down. catch him with 1 head kick, and score the 3 points to draw. when the clock was close to 0, i tried, but cant even lift my leg high enough.
the whole bout shld end in ard 6 mins. but it feels like 15 mins, with each action happening almost instantly. every kick every block, all happens in a split instant. maybe that is the pace of the match.
lost mainly coz of my lack of stamina. n its a stupid reason which i thought wont exist. i remember asking quite a few senior in the past tournaments. sparring where got so easy no stamina 1, it last only 6 mins.
from win to lose. charging like mad when i can keep the pace slow n steady and find my chance when i was leading by 3 points. taking a lot of direct hits to my arm which is now damn pain, felt like muscles tearing. a lot of things that i wont normally do when training. nvr felt the pressure of having to score points under a time limit. the 1st fight had taught me so many things. daryl, minghao, sirs, keli, weilang, all said things that i could have done to win the match so easily, instead screwed it up. keep thinking about it after the last bout of the day. felt even more sux. it just sux. it sux to lose this way, made it even worse when pple come telling me that i could have just won. i told myself, that i wanted to win at least 1 bout. not to just get a useless bronze when its already there for me. come on, that bronze is like being so sarcastic. seems like saying that u r lousy, but i wan u to go up to the stand to collect the medal, n the medal that u get is a confirmation that u r lousy. 4 pple in the cat and u cant win even the 1st bout. really wanted to make myself absent during the award presentation. even cried on the bus back. so weak rite. if only there would be some1 at my side lending me a ear and a shoulder... talking to me, consoling me.
on another account, i find competitions being so fun. i was having so much fun in my bout, despite losing it, until i started thinking that i could have won. it was great talking to my opponent. taking some1 that u lost to as ur future opponent and try winning them in the next match up. competitions are great except for the losing part.
will work a lot on my stamina in the holidays. and head kicks are proved to be important in competition. train on mentality and spar more, keeping cool and waiting for the right opportunity. dont really expect much from cks. but nationals will be great...
right now, i only want to slp.. maybe watching anime may help too..
haiz... lost my 1st competition. n i lost it to myself. haven really watch the replay, but, i dunno wat is wrong. nvr been this aggressive be4 even if i tried really hard in the past.
reflections:
did quite a lot of thinking be4 the competition. thought real hard of how to get score fast, how to catch the opponent by surprise, how to fake opponent and then counter him. warmed up, cooled down warmed up again. it doesnt look too bad, especially got the feel like yesterday. i had quite a lot of confidence in myself.
Prepared everything damn early, wore all the guards and padding be4 they even call for the bout. was damn excited to start my bout. finally go in already, become very nervous. cant stay calm. saw my opponent, saw him be4 too, his name is tan wei sheng, same as my class that 1.. he has the look of freddy now to think of it. he really looked damn familiar. talked to him a while, then 1 bout be4 mine, sir jb told me, dont give him distance, fight half way no stamina, can win de. what i usually do during sparring training, i hardly even get caught out of breadth, wait for chance then go, not even attacking, just trying to defend myself. so i thought the stamina part would be okay.
when at the side of the mat, be the bout start, he reminded me again. can here pple cheering for me.. 3 distinct voices, 1 from the team, 1 from guoshu coz she pronounce my name diff from the others, 1 i thought was from keli, but i think its from some1 who was lagging from the rest. nvm. that 1 leave aside.
finally, be4 fighting, wat i remember seeing was like some places in heaven, like very bright, shiny and borderless place, like an empty space. inside there were only 4 objects. me, opponent, mat and the score board. and that time my brain was all blank. all i know that i shld do is to score his padding, to whack him, to gain as many points as possible. n chionged. really chionged. kicked 2-3 times the no. of kicks that i would kick in 1 round. until its the break, im leading 3-0. i thought, wow, not bad ar.. haha.. going win liao, then walk back to sir, suddenly realise that im trying hard to catch my breadth. i had no idea i was struggling with my breadth. had done nothing that i had wanted to try, had not followed any instructions. that was when i told myself, that i need to slow down the pace for round 2. try to keep close to him.
when round 2 came, same thing happened again chionging like a bull, aiming for the blue padding. exchanged kicks, quite a few goood kicks i felt, and ended the round still leading. cant remember the score. maybe 7-5. omg. at that time i really felt like dying. gasping for air, thats all i felt. still, same instructions from sir.
round 3 is the self pawn round. still leading, by at least 3 points. still with the same mentality, with the same things that i saw in round 1. only that this time, had a much harder time, throwing my legs. almost completely out of energy. he caught up, and some point of time, he overtook with a score of 11-10. that was when i panicked. trying to catch him, but instead letting him take another 2 points. i had always told myself be4, nvr to chase without thinking at opponent when time is running short. but somehow, my instinct all took over. maybe i was overconfident. until there was like ard 30 secs left, i thought i could use my BT making it obvious to fake him. it did work, 3 out of 3 times, but i did not even think of how to counter after he got faked n side step. 15 secs left i decided to slow down. catch him with 1 head kick, and score the 3 points to draw. when the clock was close to 0, i tried, but cant even lift my leg high enough.
the whole bout shld end in ard 6 mins. but it feels like 15 mins, with each action happening almost instantly. every kick every block, all happens in a split instant. maybe that is the pace of the match.
lost mainly coz of my lack of stamina. n its a stupid reason which i thought wont exist. i remember asking quite a few senior in the past tournaments. sparring where got so easy no stamina 1, it last only 6 mins.
from win to lose. charging like mad when i can keep the pace slow n steady and find my chance when i was leading by 3 points. taking a lot of direct hits to my arm which is now damn pain, felt like muscles tearing. a lot of things that i wont normally do when training. nvr felt the pressure of having to score points under a time limit. the 1st fight had taught me so many things. daryl, minghao, sirs, keli, weilang, all said things that i could have done to win the match so easily, instead screwed it up. keep thinking about it after the last bout of the day. felt even more sux. it just sux. it sux to lose this way, made it even worse when pple come telling me that i could have just won. i told myself, that i wanted to win at least 1 bout. not to just get a useless bronze when its already there for me. come on, that bronze is like being so sarcastic. seems like saying that u r lousy, but i wan u to go up to the stand to collect the medal, n the medal that u get is a confirmation that u r lousy. 4 pple in the cat and u cant win even the 1st bout. really wanted to make myself absent during the award presentation. even cried on the bus back. so weak rite. if only there would be some1 at my side lending me a ear and a shoulder... talking to me, consoling me.
on another account, i find competitions being so fun. i was having so much fun in my bout, despite losing it, until i started thinking that i could have won. it was great talking to my opponent. taking some1 that u lost to as ur future opponent and try winning them in the next match up. competitions are great except for the losing part.
will work a lot on my stamina in the holidays. and head kicks are proved to be important in competition. train on mentality and spar more, keeping cool and waiting for the right opportunity. dont really expect much from cks. but nationals will be great...
right now, i only want to slp.. maybe watching anime may help too..
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Name: Xiong Yishun
D.O.B.: 14/08/1990
School: SP/DASE
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