Sunday, July 15, 2007


the sight of you, the thought of you.
look at you, think of you.
they give encouragement and hope,
giving a clear target,
something to go after.
again and again,
i failed.
will and determination,
pulled me together,
to go on even more.
yet,
words are sharper than swords.
a sharp pain,
and nothing gain.
everything just repeats,
again and again.
everything seems lost.
no more targets,
mind went blank.
no idea whats going on,
neither whats going to happen.
should i fight on,
or should i give up
before its too late.
or maybe,
these feelings are temperary,
things might get better as time goes by.
its getting more and more difficult
to pull myself together again.
i might be able to pull through,
but can i for a third time...

do you mean by what you say?
or is it just some casual comments.
is it just something for me to see?
or for someone else.
the world is complex,
never understand whats going on.
perhaps i should change
from engineering to psycology,
to understand others better...


haizz... things just spills out of my mind...
8:44 pm