Monday, January 30, 2012
11 of 266
Did a 5km roller coaster run in the morning. Nvr actually ran 5km be4.. Longest was 4km!! I really had no confidence at all.. Somemore got upslope downslope, and must finish in 26.40.. Its like almost impossible to do 1.. But in the end, I managed to finish in 26.43++ amazing sio! My fastest recorded timing for 4km was 26 min! Now got 5km.. Nice.. My wing comm is 40 year old alr.. And he is like so damn fit. Ran 2.4 faster than most of us nvm.. 5km also pawn us... Even the staff serg in charge of store pawns us.. Haizz.
Afternoon to night did navigation exercise. Day 1 was pretty easy.. Supposed to do 4 checkpoints. But I was only atmy 2nd checkpoint when it rained.. Like wtf.. Heng I got my ans correct and passed the test.. Got 2/2 from the required 2/4.. Then don't have to retake.. But still, when I came out from the hill, I'm soaking wet.. Haizz.. Night navigation was more challenging.. Can't see compass, can't see things infront.. Just walk straight lor.. In the end 1 wrong 1 right.. Still pass.. Go back bunk 11.30 alr..
12 of 266
Early in the morning started with lectures and talks. I reretested my safety regulations.. Omg! Other than that, whole day do area cleaning.. Sounds like pace slowed down? Haha.. It ended 12.40am.. Nice.. Don't even have time to shower at all..
13 of 266
Parents visit day. Turned out early in the morning ard 4, barely having 3 hrs of slp.. Got tekan here and there, then up ranked 2 bars.. =) parents visiting the whole morning, nothing much.. Afternoon got some bunk reshuffle, thx to pple like me going to air wing. 4 bags of things to carry around.. Moved to air wing only to find out that I'm moving out of ocs.. And because I din return laptop, I can't go home and needed stay 1 night. But its sad lah.. Have to leave all the charlies behind. But I will be back 3 month later.. =) went back to talk to all of them.. But really feel damn sad.
14 of 266
Return laptop early in the morning and zao home.. Ocs paused here for me.. And what am I doing now? Lepak at canteen in aftc wait for 5.30 to go home.. Lame..
11 of 266
Did a 5km roller coaster run in the morning. Nvr actually ran 5km be4.. Longest was 4km!! I really had no confidence at all.. Somemore got upslope downslope, and must finish in 26.40.. Its like almost impossible to do 1.. But in the end, I managed to finish in 26.43++ amazing sio! My fastest recorded timing for 4km was 26 min! Now got 5km.. Nice.. My wing comm is 40 year old alr.. And he is like so damn fit. Ran 2.4 faster than most of us nvm.. 5km also pawn us... Even the staff serg in charge of store pawns us.. Haizz.
Afternoon to night did navigation exercise. Day 1 was pretty easy.. Supposed to do 4 checkpoints. But I was only atmy 2nd checkpoint when it rained.. Like wtf.. Heng I got my ans correct and passed the test.. Got 2/2 from the required 2/4.. Then don't have to retake.. But still, when I came out from the hill, I'm soaking wet.. Haizz.. Night navigation was more challenging.. Can't see compass, can't see things infront.. Just walk straight lor.. In the end 1 wrong 1 right.. Still pass.. Go back bunk 11.30 alr..
12 of 266
Early in the morning started with lectures and talks. I reretested my safety regulations.. Omg! Other than that, whole day do area cleaning.. Sounds like pace slowed down? Haha.. It ended 12.40am.. Nice.. Don't even have time to shower at all..
13 of 266
Parents visit day. Turned out early in the morning ard 4, barely having 3 hrs of slp.. Got tekan here and there, then up ranked 2 bars.. =) parents visiting the whole morning, nothing much.. Afternoon got some bunk reshuffle, thx to pple like me going to air wing. 4 bags of things to carry around.. Moved to air wing only to find out that I'm moving out of ocs.. And because I din return laptop, I can't go home and needed stay 1 night. But its sad lah.. Have to leave all the charlies behind. But I will be back 3 month later.. =) went back to talk to all of them.. But really feel damn sad.
14 of 266
Return laptop early in the morning and zao home.. Ocs paused here for me.. And what am I doing now? Lepak at canteen in aftc wait for 5.30 to go home.. Lame..
7:39 AM
Thursday, January 26, 2012
10 of 266
2day had the 2nd high key after confidence jump.. Went to the gas chamber to experience tear gas.. Quite fun actually, doing exercise in chemical defence suit and mask. Look like many many mosquitos.. Haha.. Need to change filter, which I cocked up. Supposed to hold breadth, but I took so long that I decided I shall just take my time and breath.. And last part was to say a string of words without the mask. I managed to do it in 1 breadth, but when the officer ask me what wing, I suppose to ans charlie wing. But I heard what wing as breath in.. So I took the deep breath. That's when the whole effect really kicked in.. When go out of the chamber.. Really like I have been crying for the past hrs like that.. Damn cool.. Its super fun but many pple don't like.. Haha.. Still wanna try it again.. But no chance liao.. Haizz.. The rest of the day all talks.. But at night got a test for training safety regulations.. No1 actually really had the time to study for it.. 80% to pass.. Dunno real or fake also.. Pumping count as of today, 136
10 of 266
2day had the 2nd high key after confidence jump.. Went to the gas chamber to experience tear gas.. Quite fun actually, doing exercise in chemical defence suit and mask. Look like many many mosquitos.. Haha.. Need to change filter, which I cocked up. Supposed to hold breadth, but I took so long that I decided I shall just take my time and breath.. And last part was to say a string of words without the mask. I managed to do it in 1 breadth, but when the officer ask me what wing, I suppose to ans charlie wing. But I heard what wing as breath in.. So I took the deep breath. That's when the whole effect really kicked in.. When go out of the chamber.. Really like I have been crying for the past hrs like that.. Damn cool.. Its super fun but many pple don't like.. Haha.. Still wanna try it again.. But no chance liao.. Haizz.. The rest of the day all talks.. But at night got a test for training safety regulations.. No1 actually really had the time to study for it.. 80% to pass.. Dunno real or fake also.. Pumping count as of today, 136
11:03 PM
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
9 of 288
today had interview for air force engineer. among all 13 pple who went for the interview, my gpa is like on of the lowest. Im totally surprised that i got through it. Maybe it was because i wrote a wonderful essay. The interviewers actually picked out individual phrases from my essay to talk about, and they spent a lot of time asking me about my fyp and the things i learned in poly. Moral of the story, do well in poly to help in interview! and must impress them. my class DASE 24, 4 went ocs this batch. 3 expressed interest for this engineer thing. 3 all passed interview. total 6 passed interview, including me, 3 from my class, 1 of MM top student. wonders of sp. =) having said that. I also quite worried about the contracting. the previous time round, after i signed for me1 when i was in bmt, i din make it to the vocation. today i asked, he told me that ocs overwrites that contract. I just hope that all goes smoothly this time round. So many things comes with the contract. looks pleasing so far. with minimum effort, i can get sponsorship for uni, and if all goes well in uni, i will be earning a 3.5k to 4.5k after i grad. then gonna work for 4 years. sounds cool. but one disadvantaqe. people who enlist 1 batch earlier gets to study this year. they commission before uni starts school but i commission in oct. but on the bright side, i dont have to stand under the sun, in the parade square, and throw my cap, but i do get the sword. =) for people who are anticipating who i wan bring for social night, too bad! no more! i think.. haha.
If i manage to get the contract soon, i will be posted to air wings next week. BYE TO FIELD CAMP AND OUT FIELDS AND ALL THOSE INFANTRY SHIT!!! but guess what am i doing now. still doing my lbv shit, adding armour plate to my lbv.. i think next week i can happily throw it into the store room.. but oh well its just a few days... =)
9 of 288
today had interview for air force engineer. among all 13 pple who went for the interview, my gpa is like on of the lowest. Im totally surprised that i got through it. Maybe it was because i wrote a wonderful essay. The interviewers actually picked out individual phrases from my essay to talk about, and they spent a lot of time asking me about my fyp and the things i learned in poly. Moral of the story, do well in poly to help in interview! and must impress them. my class DASE 24, 4 went ocs this batch. 3 expressed interest for this engineer thing. 3 all passed interview. total 6 passed interview, including me, 3 from my class, 1 of MM top student. wonders of sp. =) having said that. I also quite worried about the contracting. the previous time round, after i signed for me1 when i was in bmt, i din make it to the vocation. today i asked, he told me that ocs overwrites that contract. I just hope that all goes smoothly this time round. So many things comes with the contract. looks pleasing so far. with minimum effort, i can get sponsorship for uni, and if all goes well in uni, i will be earning a 3.5k to 4.5k after i grad. then gonna work for 4 years. sounds cool. but one disadvantaqe. people who enlist 1 batch earlier gets to study this year. they commission before uni starts school but i commission in oct. but on the bright side, i dont have to stand under the sun, in the parade square, and throw my cap, but i do get the sword. =) for people who are anticipating who i wan bring for social night, too bad! no more! i think.. haha.
If i manage to get the contract soon, i will be posted to air wings next week. BYE TO FIELD CAMP AND OUT FIELDS AND ALL THOSE INFANTRY SHIT!!! but guess what am i doing now. still doing my lbv shit, adding armour plate to my lbv.. i think next week i can happily throw it into the store room.. but oh well its just a few days... =)
8:27 PM
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
8 of 266
Booking in on a public holiday sure feels fucked up. Its only the 2nd day of CNY and here I am, in camp, at my table, doing the journal that I still owe. The past few days, staying at home, doing nothing. Quite boring on a first book out. Next book out in 10 days, definitly going to have more fun. Tomorrow interview with rsaf, really hope that I can get out of army. And if things go well, I think I have the chance to go study uni on sponsorship.. =)
8 of 266
Booking in on a public holiday sure feels fucked up. Its only the 2nd day of CNY and here I am, in camp, at my table, doing the journal that I still owe. The past few days, staying at home, doing nothing. Quite boring on a first book out. Next book out in 10 days, definitly going to have more fun. Tomorrow interview with rsaf, really hope that I can get out of army. And if things go well, I think I have the chance to go study uni on sponsorship.. =)
9:30 PM
Saturday, January 21, 2012
5/266!! Hahahaha almost 2% through.. I said that I wan post every day, but there is just so little time now.. Haizz.. In the past 5 days, I had a total of less than 1 and half hrs to myself, including showering and preparing for the following day.. Let's date back to day 1:
1 of 266
No excercise on the 1st day of coz.. But book in, 1st thing was to drop all personal belongings to the 5 tonner and brought to the wing line, and immediately, we had a parade. Like really what the fuck, we were not even 1 hour in, and they bring us to a parade.. But nvm.. Coz its first time where we get something hanging in front of the chest and something sticking at the side of no. 4.. After the parade, went back to bun for like 3 mins to take a new bag and prepare for lecture.. I had no idea what it was about cos I was sleeping through it. =D and the rest of the day was all doing paper works, some talking by the commanders. At the end of the day, 15 mins admin time.
2 of 266
Ippt cat test already.. So fast. Pple in ocs standard all so high, its like see already also will improve 1.. My sbj all the while ard 216 only.. Personal best was 220 for once only.. And it it only happened once. Then when I took the test, 1st jump 203.. 2nd 1 225, I was like wtf.. Haha, so, my first silver.. Lectures, recruitment talks. Lectures as usual, not listening at all.. Air force recruitment talk is the only thing that I have benefited from.. Shall not talk too much about it yet.. At night as usual, all the admin stuff. Be4 dinner, went to a 4km orientation run.. 4km!! Wtf. At night, more talks and admin stuff to do.. Ended up with 15 mins again.
3 of 266
3rd day of ocs, woke up early in the morning, and guess wat, parade again!! Change of school appt holder, don't really care about it, don't concern me yet. But damn it, stand so much longer than pop.. Haizz.. After which, lectures and talks again.. All seems so useless. But have to slp with caution. Heard that if caught will have to confine for 1 weekend.. Army recruitment talk at night got some freebies.. Can use to decorate my room.. Haha.. And this recruitment talk all I gained is that I must die die aim to go artillery.. Shld not take the risk on infantry..
4 of 266
Morning got an early “turn out” at 4.40am. Kena fucked coz got 2 pple din wake up to report.. But nvm, a few pumpings only. But the main purpose for the turn out is to do tower run and confidence jump. The run up the safti tower is not tiring at all, but the view from the tower, is just magnificant. Quote from 1 platoon mate, he said, when up there, u just feel like smoking.. The confidence jump was fun.. Really really fun.. Jumping off a 5m diving platform. How hard can it be rite? For me, its definitely easy to step off the platform, but its the air time after that which is scary. When others jump, u see them falling for like 1 seconds. But when I jump, I keep thinking y haven hit the water. It feels like 5 seconds of suspense. But at the same time, this is what that gives the thrill. Cny celebration in the morning.. Nothing spectacular.. Not even have chairs.. And must eat lunch standing.. =.= following that, another day of lectures.. Haizz.. At night got the 1st LV lesson.. Lucky enough, our pc was definitely not boring and I'm able to absord the things taught instead of slping.. Ended almost 8.30, spend some time to collect chemical suit from the store man, at the end, 20 mins admin time.. Haha
5 of 266
Early in the morning, 4km endurance run.. I was surprised that I am able to keep up. =) the rest of the morning was spent doing pacing. Was supposed to finish compass calibration also, but haizz. Other platoons too slow.. We were supposed to book out at 1, but when we return to wing line, it was alr 1.30.. Packed the bunk a bit, had a stand by area. Everything was fucked up. But I din kena pumping at all.. =) when everything was done, we finally got to book out at 3.30.. And it was a long walk to the gate, where I spent 20 mins waiting cab with 3 others, and ended up taking bus home..
Now is day 7 of 266. Considered very early for the first book out.. Haha. Pumping count for me is 96 so far. For pple wondering how ocs is like, 1 sentence to it. More welfare, treated more like human. But totally no time to enjoy those welfare as of now..
5/266!! Hahahaha almost 2% through.. I said that I wan post every day, but there is just so little time now.. Haizz.. In the past 5 days, I had a total of less than 1 and half hrs to myself, including showering and preparing for the following day.. Let's date back to day 1:
1 of 266
No excercise on the 1st day of coz.. But book in, 1st thing was to drop all personal belongings to the 5 tonner and brought to the wing line, and immediately, we had a parade. Like really what the fuck, we were not even 1 hour in, and they bring us to a parade.. But nvm.. Coz its first time where we get something hanging in front of the chest and something sticking at the side of no. 4.. After the parade, went back to bun for like 3 mins to take a new bag and prepare for lecture.. I had no idea what it was about cos I was sleeping through it. =D and the rest of the day was all doing paper works, some talking by the commanders. At the end of the day, 15 mins admin time.
2 of 266
Ippt cat test already.. So fast. Pple in ocs standard all so high, its like see already also will improve 1.. My sbj all the while ard 216 only.. Personal best was 220 for once only.. And it it only happened once. Then when I took the test, 1st jump 203.. 2nd 1 225, I was like wtf.. Haha, so, my first silver.. Lectures, recruitment talks. Lectures as usual, not listening at all.. Air force recruitment talk is the only thing that I have benefited from.. Shall not talk too much about it yet.. At night as usual, all the admin stuff. Be4 dinner, went to a 4km orientation run.. 4km!! Wtf. At night, more talks and admin stuff to do.. Ended up with 15 mins again.
3 of 266
3rd day of ocs, woke up early in the morning, and guess wat, parade again!! Change of school appt holder, don't really care about it, don't concern me yet. But damn it, stand so much longer than pop.. Haizz.. After which, lectures and talks again.. All seems so useless. But have to slp with caution. Heard that if caught will have to confine for 1 weekend.. Army recruitment talk at night got some freebies.. Can use to decorate my room.. Haha.. And this recruitment talk all I gained is that I must die die aim to go artillery.. Shld not take the risk on infantry..
4 of 266
Morning got an early “turn out” at 4.40am. Kena fucked coz got 2 pple din wake up to report.. But nvm, a few pumpings only. But the main purpose for the turn out is to do tower run and confidence jump. The run up the safti tower is not tiring at all, but the view from the tower, is just magnificant. Quote from 1 platoon mate, he said, when up there, u just feel like smoking.. The confidence jump was fun.. Really really fun.. Jumping off a 5m diving platform. How hard can it be rite? For me, its definitely easy to step off the platform, but its the air time after that which is scary. When others jump, u see them falling for like 1 seconds. But when I jump, I keep thinking y haven hit the water. It feels like 5 seconds of suspense. But at the same time, this is what that gives the thrill. Cny celebration in the morning.. Nothing spectacular.. Not even have chairs.. And must eat lunch standing.. =.= following that, another day of lectures.. Haizz.. At night got the 1st LV lesson.. Lucky enough, our pc was definitely not boring and I'm able to absord the things taught instead of slping.. Ended almost 8.30, spend some time to collect chemical suit from the store man, at the end, 20 mins admin time.. Haha
5 of 266
Early in the morning, 4km endurance run.. I was surprised that I am able to keep up. =) the rest of the morning was spent doing pacing. Was supposed to finish compass calibration also, but haizz. Other platoons too slow.. We were supposed to book out at 1, but when we return to wing line, it was alr 1.30.. Packed the bunk a bit, had a stand by area. Everything was fucked up. But I din kena pumping at all.. =) when everything was done, we finally got to book out at 3.30.. And it was a long walk to the gate, where I spent 20 mins waiting cab with 3 others, and ended up taking bus home..
Now is day 7 of 266. Considered very early for the first book out.. Haha. Pumping count for me is 96 so far. For pple wondering how ocs is like, 1 sentence to it. More welfare, treated more like human. But totally no time to enjoy those welfare as of now..
Labels: ocs
4:48 PM
Monday, January 16, 2012
Kk.. Its finally time to get back to blogging. For just 1 reason, to keep track of time for my next 9 month.. Its like I'm gonna go to jail like that, feels so shitty now. I have no idea how it is gonna be like, but definitly not going to be good. Tomorrow will be the first day of the 1st week, I suppose, out of the 38 weeks. I have no idea which day its gonna be the commission day, but for now, just take it as 266 days left.
Starting today, its 0/266, and shall see the numbers get closer and closer. =)
Too much uncertainties. How bad is the situation, whether can go air wing, when going overseas, posting after 3 month, who to find for social night especially, oh and field camp in tekong.. Hais. Really feel like dying. I dunwan to bookout on sat coz I can't get gold for ippt. 9 month in total. How many times can I see those different group of friends. There are so many things that I wanted to do if I was posted somewhere else, but now, all seems impossible. Really hope that I can get a good life after that.
0/266
Kk.. Its finally time to get back to blogging. For just 1 reason, to keep track of time for my next 9 month.. Its like I'm gonna go to jail like that, feels so shitty now. I have no idea how it is gonna be like, but definitly not going to be good. Tomorrow will be the first day of the 1st week, I suppose, out of the 38 weeks. I have no idea which day its gonna be the commission day, but for now, just take it as 266 days left.
Starting today, its 0/266, and shall see the numbers get closer and closer. =)
Too much uncertainties. How bad is the situation, whether can go air wing, when going overseas, posting after 3 month, who to find for social night especially, oh and field camp in tekong.. Hais. Really feel like dying. I dunwan to bookout on sat coz I can't get gold for ippt. 9 month in total. How many times can I see those different group of friends. There are so many things that I wanted to do if I was posted somewhere else, but now, all seems impossible. Really hope that I can get a good life after that.
0/266
9:04 PM
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
OH MY FING GOD!!!!!
WHAT IS THIS!!!!
CONFIRM EXAMINER MARK WRONG 1 LAH!!! How can i get this when i have been thinking that i might fail a module and at most get a C+. JOKE!!! but.. NTU!!! HERE I COME!!!! =D
im now not so much but SLIGHTly above the 10th percentile mark. shld not be a problem. and now, i dont have to rely on that NAA to get me in. =)
i dunno how i even going to slp, maybe just forget it. happy until i tired.. =DD
THIS IS CRAZY!!! but i like it~
OH MY FING GOD!!!!!
WHAT IS THIS!!!!
CONFIRM EXAMINER MARK WRONG 1 LAH!!! How can i get this when i have been thinking that i might fail a module and at most get a C+. JOKE!!! but.. NTU!!! HERE I COME!!!! =D
im now not so much but SLIGHTly above the 10th percentile mark. shld not be a problem. and now, i dont have to rely on that NAA to get me in. =)
i dunno how i even going to slp, maybe just forget it. happy until i tired.. =DD
THIS IS CRAZY!!! but i like it~
1:44 AM
Sunday, October 31, 2010
things are looking good!! =) mind being totally clear, able to think properly, and i have been able to come up with many theories myself.
1. always treasure what you have. to ask for more, is putting what you have on the line of losing it.
2. greed brings about both success and failure. If you dont like failure, dont be greedy, but you will never be successful. (ambition is under greed)
3. whenever caught up in a situation, step aside and look at it from a 3rd person view. you will be able to spot many insights which you wont if you keep yourself involved in it.
4. failure from high expectation brings about great grief. little success out of expectation brings about brings great joy.
5. life may sucks at times, but its because of those times, others are great.
one day, they will become great quotes.. maybe they are already...
things are looking good!! =) mind being totally clear, able to think properly, and i have been able to come up with many theories myself.
1. always treasure what you have. to ask for more, is putting what you have on the line of losing it.
2. greed brings about both success and failure. If you dont like failure, dont be greedy, but you will never be successful. (ambition is under greed)
3. whenever caught up in a situation, step aside and look at it from a 3rd person view. you will be able to spot many insights which you wont if you keep yourself involved in it.
4. failure from high expectation brings about great grief. little success out of expectation brings about brings great joy.
5. life may sucks at times, but its because of those times, others are great.
one day, they will become great quotes.. maybe they are already...
11:25 AM
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
i may be the last person the you wants to talk to, but you are the first person who i will want to talk to again. somethings are just missing. i cant tell what exactly is missing, but it is just affecting me. there are many things i want to proof, there are some that i have to proof, and there are some that i may never get to proof. no matter how possible or not possible it is, i will try my best. i have to do to uphold my ego.
i may be the last person the you wants to talk to, but you are the first person who i will want to talk to again. somethings are just missing. i cant tell what exactly is missing, but it is just affecting me. there are many things i want to proof, there are some that i have to proof, and there are some that i may never get to proof. no matter how possible or not possible it is, i will try my best. i have to do to uphold my ego.
1:03 AM
Monday, October 18, 2010
recently i think i have isolated myself away from a lot of people. maybe its because that i know that there are somethings that they would talk about if i were to hang out with them, or, i have a feeling that i have lost faith in something called friendship for now. i am starting to doubt, whether true friendship really exists. to me, a true friend is someone who will never abandon me no matter what i did, will back me up if i am right, and will me out of my mistakes at all cost. however, now i am starting to think that no matter who the person is, there will always be something that can happen and ruin a friendship forever. be it never being friends again, or not being as close as before. many times it had happened before and there are many various causes. in the past, i used to believe that somethings could happen and brings friends closer, but as of now, i have never really experienced it. it makes me think if this is even possible. it happens in drama very often, but life is not drama. life is something that nothing can be compared to. it is something that you will experience once and only once.
sometimes i do dream of things happening and many many dreams on one subject. all of the dreams involve different emotions, but it can be all linked together in a logical way. what is it that is really going through in my mind. is dream a reflection of once emotions and feelings? have you seen something and thought that you have dreamed about it before? are those dreams somethings that will happen in the future? like i care about those things now. i have already decided to leave it to the future yishun to settle. just in case i forget about them, i have sent an email into the future, on the day that i turn 30, to remind me of the things to do, and my personal goals and targets as of now. let the future yishun to decide what to do.
recently i think i have isolated myself away from a lot of people. maybe its because that i know that there are somethings that they would talk about if i were to hang out with them, or, i have a feeling that i have lost faith in something called friendship for now. i am starting to doubt, whether true friendship really exists. to me, a true friend is someone who will never abandon me no matter what i did, will back me up if i am right, and will me out of my mistakes at all cost. however, now i am starting to think that no matter who the person is, there will always be something that can happen and ruin a friendship forever. be it never being friends again, or not being as close as before. many times it had happened before and there are many various causes. in the past, i used to believe that somethings could happen and brings friends closer, but as of now, i have never really experienced it. it makes me think if this is even possible. it happens in drama very often, but life is not drama. life is something that nothing can be compared to. it is something that you will experience once and only once.
sometimes i do dream of things happening and many many dreams on one subject. all of the dreams involve different emotions, but it can be all linked together in a logical way. what is it that is really going through in my mind. is dream a reflection of once emotions and feelings? have you seen something and thought that you have dreamed about it before? are those dreams somethings that will happen in the future? like i care about those things now. i have already decided to leave it to the future yishun to settle. just in case i forget about them, i have sent an email into the future, on the day that i turn 30, to remind me of the things to do, and my personal goals and targets as of now. let the future yishun to decide what to do.
2:13 AM
Monday, October 11, 2010
Many things crosses way with life.
some are good,
some are bad,
some are important,
some are not so important.
some only happens once,
some keeps happening.
some are there until you grab it.
some are there for a instant for you to grab.
when you missed the chance, let go of it. leave it in the past and never look back again. i have stopped blogging on my personal blog. which is a good sign. life doesn't wait for you, and it just keep moving on. clinging on to it, only makes life hard. learn to go with the flow, learn to let go. being optimistic = happy go lucky. sometimes, being in my own fantasy, makes my world unrealistic. then when reality steps in, there comes problem. i shall learn to be a realistic optimistic person. =)
time is all i need...
Many things crosses way with life.
some are good,
some are bad,
some are important,
some are not so important.
some only happens once,
some keeps happening.
some are there until you grab it.
some are there for a instant for you to grab.
when you missed the chance, let go of it. leave it in the past and never look back again. i have stopped blogging on my personal blog. which is a good sign. life doesn't wait for you, and it just keep moving on. clinging on to it, only makes life hard. learn to go with the flow, learn to let go. being optimistic = happy go lucky. sometimes, being in my own fantasy, makes my world unrealistic. then when reality steps in, there comes problem. i shall learn to be a realistic optimistic person. =)
time is all i need...
5:16 PM
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Come on ys... just lose faith in life. god created everyone in the world for a reason. and the reason that you existed is for the need of someone to be an idiot, to be a loser. Give up about achieving things in life, you will end up screwing the whole thing up again. just be contented with what god have already given you. whenever you ask for more, god will punish you. this is what your life is about. bear with it, live with it. end it if you cant take it. god gave you 3 chances already. and yet you wanted to push for a 4th. it will not be given. this is the life you have been living for the past 20 years. realise it now if you have not. you are a sucker, you are a loser. you will end your life in this way. dont expect more.
Come on ys... just lose faith in life. god created everyone in the world for a reason. and the reason that you existed is for the need of someone to be an idiot, to be a loser. Give up about achieving things in life, you will end up screwing the whole thing up again. just be contented with what god have already given you. whenever you ask for more, god will punish you. this is what your life is about. bear with it, live with it. end it if you cant take it. god gave you 3 chances already. and yet you wanted to push for a 4th. it will not be given. this is the life you have been living for the past 20 years. realise it now if you have not. you are a sucker, you are a loser. you will end your life in this way. dont expect more.
11:00 AM
Saturday, September 11, 2010
V long no blog alr... facebook has completely over taken my blog.. but i think its time i should get back to blog. 2 reasons.
1. JASMINE SEO going to do up my blog skin for me!
kind of forgot about it already since i asked her about it like ages ago.. but yeah i shall anticipate the end product. look forward to seeing it. =D
2. Some idiot called Kelly want to bet with me to stay away from fb for the duration of the exam.
so okay lor, cant fb. but hehe. there is blogger! so its alright. 5 days, its nothing.
anywae, in the mid of the exams, AND competition. fighting tomorrow, but not really nervous or scared. just go in and whack as usual? save stamina at the same time?
maybe can lah. dunno. got a new secret weapon, yet to test but hope can be executed.
Exams sux. i have never studied so hard for exams before, yet i buanged my Dip+. heng that it is Dip+. lose 1 cert nia, no need 3.5 in poly. but monday i have paper, and yet, im not free to study. how gg is that?
anywae, shall go study now. will blog at least for the coming week. =D
V long no blog alr... facebook has completely over taken my blog.. but i think its time i should get back to blog. 2 reasons.
1. JASMINE SEO going to do up my blog skin for me!
kind of forgot about it already since i asked her about it like ages ago.. but yeah i shall anticipate the end product. look forward to seeing it. =D
2. Some idiot called Kelly want to bet with me to stay away from fb for the duration of the exam.
so okay lor, cant fb. but hehe. there is blogger! so its alright. 5 days, its nothing.
anywae, in the mid of the exams, AND competition. fighting tomorrow, but not really nervous or scared. just go in and whack as usual? save stamina at the same time?
maybe can lah. dunno. got a new secret weapon, yet to test but hope can be executed.
Exams sux. i have never studied so hard for exams before, yet i buanged my Dip+. heng that it is Dip+. lose 1 cert nia, no need 3.5 in poly. but monday i have paper, and yet, im not free to study. how gg is that?
anywae, shall go study now. will blog at least for the coming week. =D
10:24 PM
Monday, June 28, 2010
come on, its time to update!!! 2 month nvr update already.. world cup half way through. waiting for ghana to lift the trophy..
thanks to facebook, its so troublesome to blog. but, i shall not let it die. holidays are over be4 they even start. diet play half way into success, more than half way through but getting harder though. exercise more eat less lose more.. jiayou.
july is the month that will get a hole in the pocket. thx to such a large amount of output of cash. somemore no more 1250 per sem, sian.. im a poor kid alr..
after 2 more month, im a poor man alr.. haizz..
come on, its time to update!!! 2 month nvr update already.. world cup half way through. waiting for ghana to lift the trophy..
thanks to facebook, its so troublesome to blog. but, i shall not let it die. holidays are over be4 they even start. diet play half way into success, more than half way through but getting harder though. exercise more eat less lose more.. jiayou.
july is the month that will get a hole in the pocket. thx to such a large amount of output of cash. somemore no more 1250 per sem, sian.. im a poor kid alr..
after 2 more month, im a poor man alr.. haizz..
11:48 PM
Sunday, April 25, 2010
1st week of school over alr.. not so bad. c the timetable like so full, but actually quite slack. like wont go home at 5pm. then some lectures already being labeled as ponable. haha.. i did 2 tutorials for my pcem. i think its the last time i do it too. lecturers overall not bad i think. a few quite entertaining. except for the part that fridays ends at 6pm, everything else is fun.
Green day competition won us a grp of 16 pple $500.. haha.. no idea how did we win, but, win jiu dui le!!.
somehow, 1st week everyday leave school after 7.30. a bit sian. 2ml onwards things will change.. haha..
it will be the last result be4 applying for uni. hope can secure a place at ntu.
1st week of school over alr.. not so bad. c the timetable like so full, but actually quite slack. like wont go home at 5pm. then some lectures already being labeled as ponable. haha.. i did 2 tutorials for my pcem. i think its the last time i do it too. lecturers overall not bad i think. a few quite entertaining. except for the part that fridays ends at 6pm, everything else is fun.
Green day competition won us a grp of 16 pple $500.. haha.. no idea how did we win, but, win jiu dui le!!.
somehow, 1st week everyday leave school after 7.30. a bit sian. 2ml onwards things will change.. haha..
it will be the last result be4 applying for uni. hope can secure a place at ntu.
10:28 PM
Saturday, April 17, 2010
i swear, if there is no fb, i would have blogged more!!! holiday ended. school starting in 2 days. SONG BO!! have been waiting for this day!! btw.. the reason y im blogging now is coz that fb cant load. haha..
last year in poly, im old, time flies.. haha.. im gonna be a year 3.. will enjoy it to the fullest.. yet to get a gf which is my 1 of my aims at the start of poly year 1. dont really have any hopes of getting 1 within 1 year, with things going on like this. still there may be miracle, somehow. a look back at my aims back then:
1. Get SP scholarship. Currently in 2nd stage of going interview. A great thx to Jasmine who helped me with my 200 word essay. Thanks a lot...
2. Find a gf in poly. Sounds quite not possible though. Theres only 2 classes that i can mix 2gether with. Good that there is 2. Most only have 1. Y? carlyn de class got 1 is my primary school classmate. Guess where's my primary school? in Bedok. LOL. the world is small indeed.
3. Passing all my exams with crawling colours is enough. Dont really need flying. A is good enough though distinction is even better.
4. Take up 3 cca's: pool, aviation, n robo if got scholarship, n tennis if no scholarship.
5. Industrail attatchment at Airport, hopefully overseas. 7 weeks. Long working life again.
6. Graduate?
1. got it for 2 years, this year still dunno. no idea if the email is sent and did not include me or wat..
2. as stated above. target is there, but not achievable. any volunteers?
3. i think i passed them with still colours.. not moving 1, not even crawling. haizz.. but not that bad.
4. i have only 1, n its none of the above, no time for more, and cca points more than enough. haha
5. already gone.
6. soon~~
looking forward to the new acad year!! looking forward to the last year in tkd in sp!! haha.. enjoying myself so far, but still >.<""..
timetable a bit sux, but im going to attend my full 1st week, then c wat i can pon and do my pon table!! usual task.. 2ml got meh treat buffet. haha.. go slp alr, if not cant wake up in time!!
i swear, if there is no fb, i would have blogged more!!! holiday ended. school starting in 2 days. SONG BO!! have been waiting for this day!! btw.. the reason y im blogging now is coz that fb cant load. haha..
last year in poly, im old, time flies.. haha.. im gonna be a year 3.. will enjoy it to the fullest.. yet to get a gf which is my 1 of my aims at the start of poly year 1. dont really have any hopes of getting 1 within 1 year, with things going on like this. still there may be miracle, somehow. a look back at my aims back then:
1. Get SP scholarship. Currently in 2nd stage of going interview. A great thx to Jasmine who helped me with my 200 word essay. Thanks a lot...
2. Find a gf in poly. Sounds quite not possible though. Theres only 2 classes that i can mix 2gether with. Good that there is 2. Most only have 1. Y? carlyn de class got 1 is my primary school classmate. Guess where's my primary school? in Bedok. LOL. the world is small indeed.
3. Passing all my exams with crawling colours is enough. Dont really need flying. A is good enough though distinction is even better.
4. Take up 3 cca's: pool, aviation, n robo if got scholarship, n tennis if no scholarship.
5. Industrail attatchment at Airport, hopefully overseas. 7 weeks. Long working life again.
6. Graduate?
1. got it for 2 years, this year still dunno. no idea if the email is sent and did not include me or wat..
2. as stated above. target is there, but not achievable. any volunteers?
3. i think i passed them with still colours.. not moving 1, not even crawling. haizz.. but not that bad.
4. i have only 1, n its none of the above, no time for more, and cca points more than enough. haha
5. already gone.
6. soon~~
looking forward to the new acad year!! looking forward to the last year in tkd in sp!! haha.. enjoying myself so far, but still >.<""..
timetable a bit sux, but im going to attend my full 1st week, then c wat i can pon and do my pon table!! usual task.. 2ml got meh treat buffet. haha.. go slp alr, if not cant wake up in time!!
3:55 AM
Sunday, April 04, 2010
very long nvr blog le... watched clannad and felt emotionally down since last week. barely recovering and another dream last night make be feel down again. there are people important to every1 of us. when you loses some1 like that, how would u be like? able to stay strong? regret not having done something? would want to look for some1 to replace that person? waking up everyday thinking abt such stupid things. takes a while for me to sit in front of my laptop and look for other stuff to do. holidays are just so boring and these kind of thoughts fill up the mind. lets just wait for time to cover up the emotions. =)
very long nvr blog le... watched clannad and felt emotionally down since last week. barely recovering and another dream last night make be feel down again. there are people important to every1 of us. when you loses some1 like that, how would u be like? able to stay strong? regret not having done something? would want to look for some1 to replace that person? waking up everyday thinking abt such stupid things. takes a while for me to sit in front of my laptop and look for other stuff to do. holidays are just so boring and these kind of thoughts fill up the mind. lets just wait for time to cover up the emotions. =)
11:04 PM
Friday, March 26, 2010
finally got another day of break.. sat sun got cks.. not bad, everyone did well. we have a few gold medals, elmo, allen, silver eileen minghao?( cant remember haha.) bronze devester, daryl and me. i was the sand bag for my opponent, kena 3 head shots. his leg is damn long and although he only uses 2 kicks, but HE AIM FOR HEAD!! its like, i dunno how to defend my head, then keep kena by him lah. tried to break the 0 but failed. haha.. but its okay. it was fun and exciting. nothing to regret about. allen got a lucky gold. his quat final opponent last few sec anyhow kick let allen score 1 winning point. from draw to win. finals also, the score suddenly jump from 6 to 8. =.= daryl koed his 1st opponent. omg, that is like damn cool lah, just that his junior cat cant kick head. haha... too bad for him.
on the way back from gyl. 4 days of food fun and laughters. had a lot of fun with my group. things just turn more n more havok as the day passes. 8 meals of buffet, sleeping on the wooden floor of the room. run around the resort, playing sports, paintball, and a lot very fun team building game. get to know a lot of pple, get to learn a lot of things. compared to last years GYL, as a whole, i would prefer this years cohord. a lot of jokers, entertaining every1 every moment. this is the 3rd overseas camp i had in poly. doubt that i have anymore camps that i can go to. Maybe this is the last in the poly. haha. every camp has its memoriable moments. the team mates, game that every1 played together, saboing 1 another, laughing at each other. all of them will be kept in the photos.
anywae, checked my results on the 3rd day of camp. haha. i was like damn reluctant to click the "view results". took me great courage, and a long time in the middle of lunch time to actually click on that link. anywae, not that bad, best sem gpa in the past 2 years of study.. sem gpa of 4.0 will be possible next year.. =)
finally got another day of break.. sat sun got cks.. not bad, everyone did well. we have a few gold medals, elmo, allen, silver eileen minghao?( cant remember haha.) bronze devester, daryl and me. i was the sand bag for my opponent, kena 3 head shots. his leg is damn long and although he only uses 2 kicks, but HE AIM FOR HEAD!! its like, i dunno how to defend my head, then keep kena by him lah. tried to break the 0 but failed. haha.. but its okay. it was fun and exciting. nothing to regret about. allen got a lucky gold. his quat final opponent last few sec anyhow kick let allen score 1 winning point. from draw to win. finals also, the score suddenly jump from 6 to 8. =.= daryl koed his 1st opponent. omg, that is like damn cool lah, just that his junior cat cant kick head. haha... too bad for him.
on the way back from gyl. 4 days of food fun and laughters. had a lot of fun with my group. things just turn more n more havok as the day passes. 8 meals of buffet, sleeping on the wooden floor of the room. run around the resort, playing sports, paintball, and a lot very fun team building game. get to know a lot of pple, get to learn a lot of things. compared to last years GYL, as a whole, i would prefer this years cohord. a lot of jokers, entertaining every1 every moment. this is the 3rd overseas camp i had in poly. doubt that i have anymore camps that i can go to. Maybe this is the last in the poly. haha. every camp has its memoriable moments. the team mates, game that every1 played together, saboing 1 another, laughing at each other. all of them will be kept in the photos.
anywae, checked my results on the 3rd day of camp. haha. i was like damn reluctant to click the "view results". took me great courage, and a long time in the middle of lunch time to actually click on that link. anywae, not that bad, best sem gpa in the past 2 years of study.. sem gpa of 4.0 will be possible next year.. =)
1:17 PM
Sunday, March 14, 2010
2 days of break, slpt through most of the 1st day.. staying late, not doing anything productive, but then, after all its holidays. haha.. endure!! 1 more week. not really that long. a lot things to do, but believe i can pull through. 3 more events. SAFMC, CKS, GYL!!! omg.. cant wait.
went IT show 2day. dont really find anything interesting, main reason being, no money, nothing i want to buy also. haha. harddisk still can last me at least another half a year. so shld be no prob. lots of friends going ns. haha. wish them all the best =D. its 4am now, and later will sleep till dinner time. haha.. now wan go watch confucius le. =P
2 days of break, slpt through most of the 1st day.. staying late, not doing anything productive, but then, after all its holidays. haha.. endure!! 1 more week. not really that long. a lot things to do, but believe i can pull through. 3 more events. SAFMC, CKS, GYL!!! omg.. cant wait.
went IT show 2day. dont really find anything interesting, main reason being, no money, nothing i want to buy also. haha. harddisk still can last me at least another half a year. so shld be no prob. lots of friends going ns. haha. wish them all the best =D. its 4am now, and later will sleep till dinner time. haha.. now wan go watch confucius le. =P
3:24 AM
Thursday, March 11, 2010
song bo. my cat for cks have got the same opponents as ivp accept for my ivp opponent. so got that angmoh from ntu and the other guy who lost to him. omg.. i have only 2 trainings to cks, and dunno really how much i could do in that time and wat can i achieve in cks. haha... really need to improve on a lot of things.
presentation today for safmc. really talked cock, during it. talking things that doesnt even sound believable. haha.. anywae, after the presentation feels much more relaxed. there is only 1 week left until the end of this competition. finally. soon it will be over. holidays coming in 2 weeks. =)
song bo. my cat for cks have got the same opponents as ivp accept for my ivp opponent. so got that angmoh from ntu and the other guy who lost to him. omg.. i have only 2 trainings to cks, and dunno really how much i could do in that time and wat can i achieve in cks. haha... really need to improve on a lot of things.
presentation today for safmc. really talked cock, during it. talking things that doesnt even sound believable. haha.. anywae, after the presentation feels much more relaxed. there is only 1 week left until the end of this competition. finally. soon it will be over. holidays coming in 2 weeks. =)
10:13 PM
Name: Xiong Yishun
D.O.B.: 14/08/1990
School: SP/DASE
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